Bunny Corcoran

Now is the twilight zone.

I woke at 3.30am and couldn’t get back to sleep. It’s now just turning 6am. I don’t feel tooo bad, all things considered.

I’ve never had insomnia, at least, not until about 6 months ago when it began. I kind of know what causes it, much of which is ‘beyond the scope of this blog’ which is the euphemism those who know me better, from the old blog, should recognise by now.

I’m now listening to dance music (I used to be very into this back it the 90s) and drinking tea. It’s OK. Today (Monday) is a Bank Holiday so there is no work to go to! I’ll chill out today and go to bed early tonight. My eyes do burn a fair bit though.

Of course, the thing about insomnia is that you spend a LOT of time thinking. Thinking about the past, the present, the future, etc. People. That sort of thing. Also, I have a reasonable amount going on, especially on the work front.

I think my biggest issues at the moment revolve around singledom and close, intense friendships, which once were. I am, by nature, a sociable person and am not designed for a solitary life (I know some people quite like it and can take/leave relationships). Spending 3 days on your own (which is fine, I should add) does also exacerbate the thinking process to an extent. I *think* I’m at about the 4 year mark of being single now (Bridget Jones eat your heart out!) Anyway, I remain hopeful that as 2008 plays out it will be a year of positive change on all fronts.

I aim to be at the gym for about 9am, hopefully I won’t fall asleep on the treadmill!!